But aside from the missions, it was a very humbling experience for me. Not because of anything to do with the missions, but I felt that the Lord showed me how small and broken I was in the trip itself. It felt pretty much like the story 'The Emperor Without Clothes' where the emperor thinks he has fashionable clothes and that he looks good, when in actual fact he is naked. He has nothing on and he's not fooling anyone.
Truth be told, I measure my value based on the talents I have. That's right, my value. I believe all of measure ourselves based on what we're good at. I've always held my talents dearly to myself, as it is the only thing that makes me feel worth something. But right now, everything is stripped away. What talents ? The Lord showed me that what I have is actually so small, that I'm broken and I lack in so many areas. That was the moment where I felt worthless. Like all your life savings is of no value anymore.
So what did I do ? Well, what else can I do but to go down on my knees and pray ? I prayed this simple prayer to the Lord.
"Lord, everything I have is Yours. All that I am is Yours.
Lord, what I have may not be much to others or to You,
but Lord take my broken offering and make it whole."
This verse came into my head when I was praying.
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
- 2 Corinthians 12:9
What I have may not be much to others, but I'm going to give everything unto Him. I do not live to serve men, but I live to serve the Lord almighty. :) I believe this is the right thing to do, and I know I can't go wrong in giving my all to Him. I don't know who might be reading this, but I urge you to give everything to the Lord, be it how small or broken your offering may be !
Chris
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